The grace and beauty of dying

death and life, two very close friends
death and life, two very close friends

Dear everyone,

what a topic in the middle of summers heat and sunny days!
Yet I feel called to the theme of death alot lately, not only in my  own inner and  contemplations but also through friends, familiy and my own memories.

Death always is a part of life, withering and passing begins in the midst of the year and the full power of the sun and nature, the leaving of outer light and warmth is already in progress in summers noon.

Transformations and transitions are closely related to death and happen frequently throughout the year and also in our life – the change of seasons, our yearly birthday, our stations in life like leaving of school, moving out of our parents house, job occupations and changes here, a marriage or other longer relationship and the end of it, the loss of friendships, the leaving of other persons in our life, the passing of people or animals we love and care for alot. It will always be challenging for the living, yet also always is a great teacher, all of this.

We have all experienced this numerous times before, and will experience again.
This is certain, if nothing else is. Change, loss and transitions are things that are certain and reliable.

Does this sound macabre to you?
It is not.
Feel deeply into this for a moment, and you might sense a release in it too,
and peace. Nothing ever stays the same, not the nice and good and beloved things, not the unpleasant, terrible and unbearable things. All this will end, all this will change and become something else, and so will you and everything and everyone in your life.

Change and death are truly dependable and also never selective and judging, as they treat all the same. They are one great force of creation and god that show equaliity and mercy and so grace to all life just the same.

Fear arises because we are insecure and scared of change, and because we are not willing to trust our creator and dive into the unknown. But the unknown awaits us each moment, if we think about it. There never is a guarantee or security for a certain development or outcome, nor for the reactions and actions of others. And the unknown comes with us each night we go to sleep, and awakes with us each morning. We never know what the night will bring, or the next day. It is not controllable, and will never be.

Death is our greatest master in life, and dying is the greatest experience we can make.
One day, we will pass, to the other side. Until then, we can keep fearing, ignoring, running from the death; we can fight it, try to control it, condemn and judge it, humour it: It does not change a thing.
We also can make friends with it. We can welcome all the smaller and bigger deaths
while we are alife, our changes, losses, and transitons. We can walk through our lifes challenges and transformations with grace and gratitude, no matter how painful and exhausting at times. We can celebrate the sun and the summers high and still already welcome the fall and winter and realize the dying light in the midst of summer.

This way, we are in full contact with life and all its splendour and power and still hold
fast to the other side of it: the dark, the moon, the doom, the withering and death.
And when death knocks at our bedstead one day we can welcome him like an old
friend, willingly take his hand and leave gracefully. And when a friend or family member is dying, we can rest by his side in peace and love and trust and gift him this grace by reaching brother deaths hand for our dying one, and connect them as friends too.

This not only gives the dying a peaceful passage home and lights up their soul,
it has the same effect on us and the whole world.


I thank you so much for listening and caring about this truly crucial theme.

Ulrike ❤



I am in a storm right now and I am feeling great.
The cold wind is waking me up, increasing my blood circulation.
The ruffling on my hair and body makes me feel vivid and challenges me to stand even stronger, or to dance with the stormwind.
The howling and roaring makes me feel my inner silence even better.

I embrace the storm as he shakes my ground so things can be sorted anew.
He blows loose and ungrounded things away, or makes me ground and tighten what is of value and importance.
He gives me more power to let go, and trust in change.
And he makes me feel my place in the great forces of nature.

I thank you storm.




Today, let us see and sense anything that appears to us as an opportunity to open up more inside.

What is really happening when we face a challenge,
a pain, fear, loss or disappointment?
The thing that matters is never out there, it is inside.

Of course it is not so easy to understand and perceive this way, and we need to withdraw and care for ourselves first to be able to change our point of view.

My treasures for you today result from this work and realization.
I wish to encourage you, to give you my love and light for whatever challenges and burdens you.

In the light inside of yourself,
where we also are always together with our beloved ones, and with the divine love and light, feel your heart.
Feel your fragile yet powerful light and warmth.
I assure you that it is always enough, always there no matter how you feel right now.

It is for you, to recover from your emotional, physical and mental stress.
And more, it is so powerful that while you are recovering it opens widely the door to the divine.

You arrive there naturally whilst resting in your inner heart. Humans are born magical beings, as their true hearts are inborn portals to the heavens.

And you need not know and learn more about it.
Simply by having this knowing and faith you do the wonder each time you retreat into your inner heart, resting there, breathing peacefully. Recovering yourself from the outer stress and from emotional turmoilt, you automatically recover and heal the outside situation with all that is included.

Isn’t this a truly beautiful thing to know?
Every human can do it, no matter how old or evolved or how being raised and shaped.

It is our real natural being.
It is our inborn power.
And it is what we are doing now.

Portals built from love,
beginning with selflove
and selfcare.
All else unfolding like a blossoming flower, nourished by this selflove,
which is automatically spreading into the world.

It is simple.
It is pure.
Gentle, childlike, small at first but growing with irresistable might.

I am so very grateful and happy to share this with you. Have a most beautiful day my dear friends and all of you listening.

… 💜 Ulrike



Dear friends, dear listeners,

I want to encourage you to see
your personal journey and story
as human being as a great gift
for all others.

We are challenged, we are struggling
and we deal with our trials.
Could it not be this is our purpose,
the meaning of our life?

To stand strong for ourselves
no matter what without
comparison to others and
their lifes and possibilities.

In the end, we are the specialists
of our life and path, and only we
ourselves can find the right way
and medicine for it.

Our great gift for humanity
is exactly this processs
and the sharing of it.
And not only after having
fulfilled all our tasks,
which is never done,
but while and in the middle
of it all.

By sharing our story
we break the walls of
shameful silence and
isolation, ours and
those of our fellow humans.

Our hidden treasure
lies in our own personal story.
Do not hide, your precious
unique light wants to be
freed through your very life.

And believe me,
it cannot be too hard or too
meaningless to share.
YOU give the meaning to it,
YOU are the one that counts.

The human life is much greater
than we can yet grasp.
Why? Because we love, fail,
learn, break, still go on,
laugh and cry, believe and
loose, and gather hope and
light again and again.

Human. Weak and strong.
Connected through love
and through pain.
Waking our inner light
in the midst of it all.



Story of my Resurrection III


Dear listeners,

again I write and report from own experiences, insights and contemplations.
Please read and use it in own pace and responsibility, I make it available
for the best of all of us.

The first stage of our death is the loss of our physical body.
We literally leave it. We are a bundled consciousness gathered
in a conglomerate called soul.
Our soul is light but also gathered experiences of all our lived existances
and even those of others.
This is it what makes out the great challenge.
It is indeed very individual and special, everone has his or her own
specific trials and challenges to master, in life as well as in death.

One can even say the soul is the life sparc to animate and keep the
physical realm and body alive and running. Saying this it is inevitable there
build bonds and attachments to the physical too for the sake to protect and maintain
the physical life our soul inhabits. It has helped me alot to sense this soul
more a feminine force caring for the physical. Physically related fears
and issues are very much connected to the soul and its gathered experiences
over all the lived lifes and existances.

In the moment of physical death we are challenged foremost with all those
fears and attachments related to our physical body and earthly life.
And as much as these are somehow feminine aspects of ourselves
we are able to solve and release them in a femine way.

Our soul leaves our physical body in the same way as it has entered it
when we were still in the womb of our earthly mother:
Through the root chakra. This is why birth and death are so similar
and experienced as a passage through a dark narrow tunnel with feelings
and sensations of pressure, darkness and great fear that feels quite
physical still. That passage is the birth channel of our own body,
to pass down through our first, the root chakra, into the astral realm.

The solution to be able to pass lies in a femine way:
Relaxation, trust, surrendering to the process.
Alike to giving birth.
Yet the knowledge and clearness necessary to be able to do so
we are talking about right now lies in a clear undistracted mind.

This is an aspect in my comprehension and experience I relate
to be more masculine. I have realized this as the clear spirit
we all have as force and energy too apart from our soul.
It is the ability to see things from a clear and unemotional
standpoint or view and observe and manage.

It is a lovely and helpful approach to sense these two forces
as our inner divine mother and father aspects.
To fully realize and practically train these two aspects of
ourselves and bring them into harmony for a loving and effective
cooperation is the key for a happy conscious life and a good
and conscious death.

Speaking of practical application let us now come to when and how
we can use these insights in our human and every day life:

We can and shall practice to use our inner feminine as well as
masculine aspects in all the physically challenging situations
life brings. Examples are

–  physical pain
–  physical illness
–  physical exhaustion
–  sexuality and orgasm
–  the female menstruation
–  birth of a child
–  all fears related to being physically threatened, injured,
abused or killed.

All the mentioned situations and challenges are necessary to be explored
and trained by females AND males independand of an own
physical experience. All these are crucial and inevitable human issues
we cannot evade to face in our life or death.

No matter if due to own actual experiences or those of others
the solution and release lies in this loving and effective
coworking of our inner male and female.
The inner male or father providing a clear light of knowledge,
overlooking and managing the situation, guiding and encouaging,
but also shielding and protecting, offering strength and hold.
Compassion for all the feminine.
The inner female of mother providing unconditional love, warmth
and comfort, nourishing and devotional.
Trust and believe in the masculine.
Remember we ALL have both in us, and the more we empower the
true strength of both and bring them into harmony by daily practice
the more we can apply this in the face of our physical death as well.

Looking at our life it is a beautiful task to find our center in all that encounters
or challenges us and finding harmony in the midst of these two poles
being really a divine loving couple.

And this is the most important message to give you related to life AND death:
LOVE is the medicine within for anything. Love and compassion, patience and
understanding, trust and faith. To the things outside, to the things inside,
which in reality are ONE.

Do not fear the death, do not fear the life.
Practice love over all – selflove, love in action, love in devotion.

Blessings for all of you listening,
and thank you very much.

… ❤ Ulrike

Story of my Resurrection II


Dreamwork for my Family

I had stopped my tale when my beloved brother had left his physical body.

I was in a shock as little girl of 6 years.
I did not realize he was dead, and no one told me this clearly.
My parents did not talk to me about it, or with each other in
my presence. I was not taken to his funeral.
Nobody was helping me or talking with me about it.

I could not mourn or cry. My heart and throat were drying out,
at least to other human beings.
They seemed increasingly unreal to me while I was travelling and living
in other worlds.
I became really silent and withdrawn, communicating with trees and moss
and mushrooms in the forests instead, or with wind and water, the soil
and grasslands of my mother earth.
They were always there for me, caring and comforting me.

And I got to know other beings and realms, those of the gnomes and dwarfs,
the elves and fairies, the beings of water and wind.
And others, giant and small, beautiful and terrific.
But not all were always kind and supportive, some were tricky and mean;
leading me astray, terrorizing my sleep and dreams at night, making me
wonder if I was wake or dreaming often.

Tearing at my body, heart and soul and feeding from my life force or making
my fears and nightmares come true in my human life.
And not only mine but also those of my parents, family and ancestors,
pushing all unsolved issues to the surface and into the physical realm.

How can a child bear and survive such a trial?
I can answer this now, holding the child inside warm and safe in my
own inner parents arms.

I was created to do this, and so I was able to do it.
And I was created as two in one, with my brother as my guiding sun.

I was powered by a huge selfhealing force from my mother earth,
with an incredible ability to stand pain, fear and suffering.
I was gifted with a brilliant creative mind and an artistic soul
to channel my inner feelings and movements and to look at all
from a more distant and observing view.
My feelings were deep like the ocean, and though I could not share
them really with other humans they enabled me to dive in and through
all I was experiencing without fully leaving my body, which additionally
responsed with alot of psychosomatic reactions to give me important
and necessary hints and keys.

And my beautiful soul brother flooded and blessed me continuously with
golden light from the place of his highest Self in Gods sacred Gardens.

Now and here, I can say:
We are one and whole on soul plane and from highest view, but not yet on human plane.
I am not yet fully alive with all my aspects, but in great progress!

All is very fine and in sync with the divine orchestra,
nothing is lost or too late.
I am truly blesssed and happy, and so he is.
At least on higher planes.
My human self is sometimes stumbling and falling, doubting and questioning,
complaining and crying, but that is not a problem.

We need to pick ourselves up again, encourage and comfort
ourselves, listen to ourselves in unbreakable patience and love.
This way we can make it, whatever may come.

I am very happy for you listening and caring, you give me and my story
meaning and purpose. As this all was not happening and experienced only
for my own sake, but for all of us.

I will continue next time by sharing my experiences in detail of the
different landscapes of death or the different astal planes I have
passed through.
It is a very important lesson included, not only for the physical death coming one day
but very much for our life here and now and for our very normal human matters each day.

Will you follow me?
Thank you.
I love you.



Story of my Resurrection I


A journey into death and back to life

I was born in November 1969.
My life was fine.
I got a brother in summer of 1971.
I loved him very much. He loved me deeply too.
Fighting and loving, always sticking together almost like twins.

I was dark, he was light.
I was tall and slim, he was soft and roundish.
Sun and Moon.
Dusk and dawn.
Summer warmth and the dying of the year.

On my 6th birthday in 1975 he was already ill, unrecognized. He was silent and withdrawn, could not participate.
8 days later he died.
He had an unhealable infection of the brain.
No machine was able to make him stay.

And he had known.
Around his 4th birthday end of July that year he had said:
“When I have to die I am not afraid.”

When he fell into coma I was asleep and my parents left me alone at home to bring him into hospital.
He never woke into his body again. I never saw him again alive.

My soul fell into darkness.
She followed him to search her beloved brother. And so I followed him into the landscapes of death, seeing only greyish shapes in a nomans land.
But he was not there.

Higher wisdom had decided to send a part of him back to save me from dying as well.
A part of his soul consciousness walked into my body and has stayed here since, while a part of my soul stayed in the landscapes of death.
These are also called the astral worlds.

It is hell, it is heaven, it is the landscapes of our dreams, hopes, desires and also of our sorrows, fears and nightmares.

I stayed alive physically and still experienced the different stages and lands of death and rebirth as connected to them constantly.

My brothers soul part gifted me light, love and faith all the time. He did not walk through the lands of death but rested in the blessed kingdom of enlighted souls to gather light for both of us.

And all this was orchestered by divine highest will and we had volunteered to do this.
Our love was and is great enough for this huge and challenging task.

Because on human plane and me in my human nature forgot about the beauty of the shared mission.

Oblivion and deep suffering followed.
But now I am allowed to wake up to the truth behind.
And the beauty of it is so amazing.

I will share all I have learned with humanity. This is my purpose.
Dear friends please follow me without fear.
And be assured it is so important and precious.

I love you.





Dearest friends and listeners, lately the news about the passing of persons are increasing. Me too have been saying farewell to one of my longest male friends being only 47.

I want to say something about it in general to light up your hearts and minds and encourage you to see the sense in the death of beloved or very appreciated human beings.

They are not being a victim of a desease, accident or the heaviness of their lifes circumstances after all even if it looks like that on first sight.
They were using the nature of divine will and law in harmony with the law of free will implemented and always valid on this planet.

And this means not a problem or catastrophy has happened but they have decided to pass in alignment to highest purpose.
They were asked and have chosen longer before this physical death to serve and assist earth or existance anywhere else in a different plane or incarnation.

I want to encourage you to see the meaning of the passing of beloved ones in a different and divine view.
My beloved friend who has just passed only a few days ago has been connected with me on heart and soul plane all the time since we met on earth, and still is.

I have received so much love and support while he was alive and I still do since he has passed. He might have died in human eyes, but his light is shining for and in me even brighter and stronger than before his death now.

Though I will be at his funeral tomorrow and have cried some tears of farewell I still rest in the unshakeable knowing he is needed elsewhere and is lead by divine highest guidance and will journey safely to reach the plane he is meant for.

We not only lighten up our own hearts and souls with this knowing and view but also those of others impacted by the loss, and even more important, we assist the last journey of our beloved human being.

The dying need our inner and outer peace and light and letting go in trust and respect of their own and gods choice.
I want to encourage you once more to a positive view and comprehension of death.
Apart from touching our human hearts and the necessary healthy mourning and missing the death of beloved ones shall give us an even deeper connection with them in our inner and an even deeper connection with our live and the highest love dwelling on divine plane, where we will never cease to be one with the beloved.

This unshakeable indestructable bond on divine plane is also always in our deepest inner heart.


Go into the daylight and sun.
Do not follow the dying into the deathlands, and do not hold onto them to make them stay.

A beautiful farewell and welcome on the other side for all the dying of these days.


Love and blessings always.
Ulrike Kussike

About MySelf

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These crucial questions have been my teachers and paths and doorways all my life, and they still are. Indeed I will never stop to ask.

You shall also ask – me and yourself.  Ask the right questions and you will know.

I am

❤ born in November 1969 in Hannover, Germany

❤ mother of 2 adult kids, female and male, and 1 teenage girl

❤ grandmother of a lovely grandson

❤ graduated in highschool

❤ clerk for bureau information service and communication

❤ massage therapist, ayurvedic therapist, reiki therapist

❤ psychological counsellor, systemic counsellor

❤ transpersonal & spiritual counsellor

❤ medium & divine channel

❤ poet, artist, scribe

❤ photographer

❤ mystic, magician, lover

❤ human, spiritual, whole

… to be continued…

Dearest listeners, this is a list though it has no sequence and priorities. I could write more but I would rather invite YOU to make your own WHAT I AM list for yourself!

Take it seriously, take it playfully, add all that comes to your mind and heart spontanously. You can also add attributes and interests like curiosity and vulnerability, openmindedness and cautiousness, or wittedness and empathy, introvert or extrovert.

And if this begins to sound like an application list, you are right!



… ❤ Ulrike




I want to start it personal. I want you to see me.

My spirit started to travel consciously into my own being in all depth in 2012, and so I chose a photograph from that year.

Looking into nature, my own and that of life and existance. With seriousity and also still much pain for all I began to sense and feel and realize.

What is life? What is it all about? And who am I?

Questions. A great begin to get to oneself. And a great medicine too, if we are willing to hear and live into the answers coming bit by bit.

Paths. One is not better than the other. Yet we must choose, or life will choose for us. We need to take consciously responsibility, and stand strong for it.

Revelations. Great and small ones, delightful and challenging ones. Light brings up the truth. This is not always easy, not at all. But they are so worth all efforts and pain.


I did this in devotion and trust, with all that was included.

Now, today, in 2017, shortly before my 48th birthday, I am truly getting awake to the core of what I really am, what all of my lifes experiences where really about and for, and most of all what I am here for and called to do.

What that means?

Follow me dear friends and listeners, and I will reveal all I am and know to you.

Bit by bit, like I am feeling good for and am lead to do.

Thank you.

… ❤ Ulrike