The grace and beauty of dying

death and life, two very close friends
death and life, two very close friends

Dear everyone,

what a topic in the middle of summers heat and sunny days!
Yet I feel called to the theme of death alot lately, not only in my  own inner and  contemplations but also through friends, familiy and my own memories.

Death always is a part of life, withering and passing begins in the midst of the year and the full power of the sun and nature, the leaving of outer light and warmth is already in progress in summers noon.

Transformations and transitions are closely related to death and happen frequently throughout the year and also in our life – the change of seasons, our yearly birthday, our stations in life like leaving of school, moving out of our parents house, job occupations and changes here, a marriage or other longer relationship and the end of it, the loss of friendships, the leaving of other persons in our life, the passing of people or animals we love and care for alot. It will always be challenging for the living, yet also always is a great teacher, all of this.

We have all experienced this numerous times before, and will experience again.
This is certain, if nothing else is. Change, loss and transitions are things that are certain and reliable.

Does this sound macabre to you?
It is not.
Feel deeply into this for a moment, and you might sense a release in it too,
and peace. Nothing ever stays the same, not the nice and good and beloved things, not the unpleasant, terrible and unbearable things. All this will end, all this will change and become something else, and so will you and everything and everyone in your life.

Change and death are truly dependable and also never selective and judging, as they treat all the same. They are one great force of creation and god that show equaliity and mercy and so grace to all life just the same.

Fear arises because we are insecure and scared of change, and because we are not willing to trust our creator and dive into the unknown. But the unknown awaits us each moment, if we think about it. There never is a guarantee or security for a certain development or outcome, nor for the reactions and actions of others. And the unknown comes with us each night we go to sleep, and awakes with us each morning. We never know what the night will bring, or the next day. It is not controllable, and will never be.

Death is our greatest master in life, and dying is the greatest experience we can make.
One day, we will pass, to the other side. Until then, we can keep fearing, ignoring, running from the death; we can fight it, try to control it, condemn and judge it, humour it: It does not change a thing.
We also can make friends with it. We can welcome all the smaller and bigger deaths
while we are alife, our changes, losses, and transitons. We can walk through our lifes challenges and transformations with grace and gratitude, no matter how painful and exhausting at times. We can celebrate the sun and the summers high and still already welcome the fall and winter and realize the dying light in the midst of summer.

This way, we are in full contact with life and all its splendour and power and still hold
fast to the other side of it: the dark, the moon, the doom, the withering and death.
And when death knocks at our bedstead one day we can welcome him like an old
friend, willingly take his hand and leave gracefully. And when a friend or family member is dying, we can rest by his side in peace and love and trust and gift him this grace by reaching brother deaths hand for our dying one, and connect them as friends too.

This not only gives the dying a peaceful passage home and lights up their soul,
it has the same effect on us and the whole world.


I thank you so much for listening and caring about this truly crucial theme.

Ulrike ❤


Ein Zauberspruch

Extreme kennen
und auch leben
sie benennen
um zu weben

Einen Teppich
bunt und schön
um zu Fliegen
nicht drauf stehn.

Hexlein, Spinne, Weberknecht
knüpfe eifrig dein Geflecht !

schwarz und weiß
rot wie Blut
weiß wie Schnee
Feuers Glut
Wassers Eis
kühlt die Wut.

Mannes Stolz
Schwert im Schaft
Erde und Holz
Ernte schafft.

Weibleins Bauch
Liebes Kraft
Alter Brauch
Licht erschafft.

Kreis ohne Ende
mach mich ganz.

Hexe, Spinnlein, Weberknecht
spinne ein und mach es recht !

Extreme kennen
und auch leben
Pole nennen
um zu weben

Einen Stoff
bunt und schön
ein Gewebe
es wird dir stehn.

Möge tragen
unsren Traum
im Neuen Körper
in Neuen Raum.

Flügel wachsen
Licht gedeiht
Sonne wärmt
mein Neues Kleid.

Nimm das Alte
in Dir mit
flieg mein Vogel
sing Tiwitt !

Das Gewebe
das bist du
flieg ins Licht
der Sonne zu !

Flieg mein Schatten !
Sei mein Schein !
Neues Leben
mit Altem Wein.

Liebe zur Erde
nähre mein Blut
Liebe zur Sonne
sei meine Glut.

Hexe, Spinnlein, Weberknecht
sprich dem Neugebornen
sein Recht !

Vergiss nicht was war.
Du bist wunderbar
im Neuen Gewand
Deine Wurzeln im Land
Deine Flügel im Licht:


ULY 01.01.2016



Nach dem Dunkel kommt das Licht.
Mein Herz sei ruhig, vergiss dies nicht.

So wie die Pflanzen sich erheben
aus dem Schlaf zurück ins Leben,
Wie sie ohne es zu wissen
innerlich dem Licht zustreben:

Ebenso wir Menschen sprengen
auf die Hüllen die beengen
Und wachsen auf in neues Sein,
lassen wir das Licht herein.

Dunkelheit kann Früchte tragen,
wenn wir nur das Neue wagen.
Ungewissheit kann nicht mehr schrecken
wo wir Licht und Weite schmecken.

Herz und Seele streckt euch aus :
Diese Neugeburt führt nachhaus.

01.04.2018 ULY


Die Zaunreiterin

Ein Auge blickt in die Sonne
das andere schaut in den Mond.
Ein Bein steht fest im Morgen
und eines im Gestern wohnt.

Ein Teil lebt in den Sphären
ein Teil der Erde begegnet,
eine Hand den hohen Himmel
die andre die Hölle segnet.

Im Hier und Jetzt, der Mitte
von allem was sich tut
geh ich langsam meine Schritte
voller Würde, voller Mut.

Im Auge des uralten Drachen,
im Auge des ewigen Sturms
wird Weisheit und Wissen erwachen
und brennen die Fackel des Turms.

Das Licht des heiligen Stabes
erhellet die fruchtbare Nacht.
Die Wärme des heiligen Herzens
den liebenden Unterschied macht.

Sprich mir, oh weises Wasser!
Sprich mir, du Feuers Schein!
Sprich mir, Wind in den Zweigen!
Sprich mir, oh Erde mein!

Sprich mir von dem was war
und was das Morgen mir lohnt,
sprich mir vom liebendem Leben
und sprich mir vom gütigen Tod.

Im Zwielicht, im Schatten
der Zeiten, des Lichts,
auf der Schwelle, dem Zaune

Auf der Bahre des Todes
im Tunnel des Seins
findest du mich:

Suche mich nicht, ich finde dich
wenn du nur meinen Namen sprichst.

ULY 12/2015


Cerridwen, keltische ErdGöttin von Ernte, Fruchtbarkeit,
Tod und Wiedergeburt



Dear friends, dear listeners,

I want to encourage you to see
your personal journey and story
as human being as a great gift
for all others.

We are challenged, we are struggling
and we deal with our trials.
Could it not be this is our purpose,
the meaning of our life?

To stand strong for ourselves
no matter what without
comparison to others and
their lifes and possibilities.

In the end, we are the specialists
of our life and path, and only we
ourselves can find the right way
and medicine for it.

Our great gift for humanity
is exactly this processs
and the sharing of it.
And not only after having
fulfilled all our tasks,
which is never done,
but while and in the middle
of it all.

By sharing our story
we break the walls of
shameful silence and
isolation, ours and
those of our fellow humans.

Our hidden treasure
lies in our own personal story.
Do not hide, your precious
unique light wants to be
freed through your very life.

And believe me,
it cannot be too hard or too
meaningless to share.
YOU give the meaning to it,
YOU are the one that counts.

The human life is much greater
than we can yet grasp.
Why? Because we love, fail,
learn, break, still go on,
laugh and cry, believe and
loose, and gather hope and
light again and again.

Human. Weak and strong.
Connected through love
and through pain.
Waking our inner light
in the midst of it all.



Story of my Resurrection III


Dear listeners,

again I write and report from own experiences, insights and contemplations.
Please read and use it in own pace and responsibility, I make it available
for the best of all of us.

The first stage of our death is the loss of our physical body.
We literally leave it. We are a bundled consciousness gathered
in a conglomerate called soul.
Our soul is light but also gathered experiences of all our lived existances
and even those of others.
This is it what makes out the great challenge.
It is indeed very individual and special, everone has his or her own
specific trials and challenges to master, in life as well as in death.

One can even say the soul is the life sparc to animate and keep the
physical realm and body alive and running. Saying this it is inevitable there
build bonds and attachments to the physical too for the sake to protect and maintain
the physical life our soul inhabits. It has helped me alot to sense this soul
more a feminine force caring for the physical. Physically related fears
and issues are very much connected to the soul and its gathered experiences
over all the lived lifes and existances.

In the moment of physical death we are challenged foremost with all those
fears and attachments related to our physical body and earthly life.
And as much as these are somehow feminine aspects of ourselves
we are able to solve and release them in a femine way.

Our soul leaves our physical body in the same way as it has entered it
when we were still in the womb of our earthly mother:
Through the root chakra. This is why birth and death are so similar
and experienced as a passage through a dark narrow tunnel with feelings
and sensations of pressure, darkness and great fear that feels quite
physical still. That passage is the birth channel of our own body,
to pass down through our first, the root chakra, into the astral realm.

The solution to be able to pass lies in a femine way:
Relaxation, trust, surrendering to the process.
Alike to giving birth.
Yet the knowledge and clearness necessary to be able to do so
we are talking about right now lies in a clear undistracted mind.

This is an aspect in my comprehension and experience I relate
to be more masculine. I have realized this as the clear spirit
we all have as force and energy too apart from our soul.
It is the ability to see things from a clear and unemotional
standpoint or view and observe and manage.

It is a lovely and helpful approach to sense these two forces
as our inner divine mother and father aspects.
To fully realize and practically train these two aspects of
ourselves and bring them into harmony for a loving and effective
cooperation is the key for a happy conscious life and a good
and conscious death.

Speaking of practical application let us now come to when and how
we can use these insights in our human and every day life:

We can and shall practice to use our inner feminine as well as
masculine aspects in all the physically challenging situations
life brings. Examples are

–  physical pain
–  physical illness
–  physical exhaustion
–  sexuality and orgasm
–  the female menstruation
–  birth of a child
–  all fears related to being physically threatened, injured,
abused or killed.

All the mentioned situations and challenges are necessary to be explored
and trained by females AND males independand of an own
physical experience. All these are crucial and inevitable human issues
we cannot evade to face in our life or death.

No matter if due to own actual experiences or those of others
the solution and release lies in this loving and effective
coworking of our inner male and female.
The inner male or father providing a clear light of knowledge,
overlooking and managing the situation, guiding and encouaging,
but also shielding and protecting, offering strength and hold.
Compassion for all the feminine.
The inner female of mother providing unconditional love, warmth
and comfort, nourishing and devotional.
Trust and believe in the masculine.
Remember we ALL have both in us, and the more we empower the
true strength of both and bring them into harmony by daily practice
the more we can apply this in the face of our physical death as well.

Looking at our life it is a beautiful task to find our center in all that encounters
or challenges us and finding harmony in the midst of these two poles
being really a divine loving couple.

And this is the most important message to give you related to life AND death:
LOVE is the medicine within for anything. Love and compassion, patience and
understanding, trust and faith. To the things outside, to the things inside,
which in reality are ONE.

Do not fear the death, do not fear the life.
Practice love over all – selflove, love in action, love in devotion.

Blessings for all of you listening,
and thank you very much.

… ❤ Ulrike

Story of my Resurrection II


Dreamwork for my Family

I had stopped my tale when my beloved brother had left his physical body.

I was in a shock as little girl of 6 years.
I did not realize he was dead, and no one told me this clearly.
My parents did not talk to me about it, or with each other in
my presence. I was not taken to his funeral.
Nobody was helping me or talking with me about it.

I could not mourn or cry. My heart and throat were drying out,
at least to other human beings.
They seemed increasingly unreal to me while I was travelling and living
in other worlds.
I became really silent and withdrawn, communicating with trees and moss
and mushrooms in the forests instead, or with wind and water, the soil
and grasslands of my mother earth.
They were always there for me, caring and comforting me.

And I got to know other beings and realms, those of the gnomes and dwarfs,
the elves and fairies, the beings of water and wind.
And others, giant and small, beautiful and terrific.
But not all were always kind and supportive, some were tricky and mean;
leading me astray, terrorizing my sleep and dreams at night, making me
wonder if I was wake or dreaming often.

Tearing at my body, heart and soul and feeding from my life force or making
my fears and nightmares come true in my human life.
And not only mine but also those of my parents, family and ancestors,
pushing all unsolved issues to the surface and into the physical realm.

How can a child bear and survive such a trial?
I can answer this now, holding the child inside warm and safe in my
own inner parents arms.

I was created to do this, and so I was able to do it.
And I was created as two in one, with my brother as my guiding sun.

I was powered by a huge selfhealing force from my mother earth,
with an incredible ability to stand pain, fear and suffering.
I was gifted with a brilliant creative mind and an artistic soul
to channel my inner feelings and movements and to look at all
from a more distant and observing view.
My feelings were deep like the ocean, and though I could not share
them really with other humans they enabled me to dive in and through
all I was experiencing without fully leaving my body, which additionally
responsed with alot of psychosomatic reactions to give me important
and necessary hints and keys.

And my beautiful soul brother flooded and blessed me continuously with
golden light from the place of his highest Self in Gods sacred Gardens.

Now and here, I can say:
We are one and whole on soul plane and from highest view, but not yet on human plane.
I am not yet fully alive with all my aspects, but in great progress!

All is very fine and in sync with the divine orchestra,
nothing is lost or too late.
I am truly blesssed and happy, and so he is.
At least on higher planes.
My human self is sometimes stumbling and falling, doubting and questioning,
complaining and crying, but that is not a problem.

We need to pick ourselves up again, encourage and comfort
ourselves, listen to ourselves in unbreakable patience and love.
This way we can make it, whatever may come.

I am very happy for you listening and caring, you give me and my story
meaning and purpose. As this all was not happening and experienced only
for my own sake, but for all of us.

I will continue next time by sharing my experiences in detail of the
different landscapes of death or the different astal planes I have
passed through.
It is a very important lesson included, not only for the physical death coming one day
but very much for our life here and now and for our very normal human matters each day.

Will you follow me?
Thank you.
I love you.




for paradise on earth

This is a prophecy. This is a path. This is a medicine.
Will you come along with me?

I am called to write this, for myself and all of us.
It is an encouraging and uplifting perspective necessary to weigh up all the depressing happenings and also predictions and prophecies current these days.
We are in the middle of great changes, this is obvious. A lot of people are suffering and are hopeless too as a result.
Not alot of them are really directly responsible, and the weight of fate seems unbearable and unrighteous, and seeing children and helpless people in such situations can break our heart.

And then we can read in numerous sources these days about the earths changes in not very encouraging words and attitude, painting pictures of the Great Judgement and a great cleansing of earth as if this was a punishment and to get rid off the evil man.
I cannot contribute to this point of view, nor shall I do so.
Instead, I want to paint a different picture for you, like I am shown and see it, to encourage you and give hope and a reason to carry on.
Fear, guilt and shame have never been good resons for a change, and are contraproductive for learning and growing.

First of all, let me assure you that not an elitist minority of mankind is destined to survive a biblic catastrophy of whatever kind. This is another splitting into good and bad, evolved and minor and is the opposite of that what is happening and unfolding to be.
How could someone not capable of reading and studying, or not having access to the internet, or having a lower IQ in the eyes of the old days be lesser in the eyes of love?
And how could a child or old person being weak and vulnerable be less protected by divine guardians?
We are all equal before the eyes of love, and our worth is measured by the heart and not by the mind.
The so-called waking up is an act of the heart, and though it can be helpful to understand things by mind at first it is of no worth if not applied to our lifes by heart.
Unlearn your mind to open the gates of love.
Ascending is nothing more or less than getting back to be a purehearted and physically pure human being, combining harmoniously the human with the divine experience.
Being a humble and warmhearted being is the greatest gift and blessing for the world.
We need no studies nor mind wisdom for this.

Coming back to current predictions, interpretations and prophecies of the past and presence I want to lift your view and comprehension to that of pure light and love.
We are not expecting another biblic cleansing of the earth by a fierce angry god annihilating the evil of mankind by deadly doom.
We read earth is preparing to redress, to reshape dramatically, and only the pure and good are being saved.
Let me show you the feminine view, the view of our beloved mother earth. She loves her children unconditionally, unchanged.
Inspite of her own suffering she cries for the pain of her children. She does not strive to get rid off us for freeing herself, she would never want us to be annihilated though we caused her excruciating pain.
How can she ascend and evolve leaving her children behind?
How could she redress while causing more bloodspilling and mourning of children and families?
This is not her way, she wants to ascend together with us and under the flag of love and loving kindness. And as this is a planet of free will, implemented by highest divine law, her will is valid.
Yet she is also protected and shielded by a masculine force always by her side, and he has proclaimed that no harm can be done to her any longer.
This is the force that is working these days, in this aera of great changes.
We are indeed experiencing the Great Judgement NOW, which was postponed to the day of our physical death until shortly. This means all of us are being confronted with our karma, shadows, sins and unsolved issues, to pick some of the usual vocabulary.

It is the time when our inner shadows and gost wake up, and they will haunt us until we have made our peace with them. We feel and recall all of our unsolved issues of our past and even past lives, according to our possibilities. This is a great chance for healing ourselves, and I tell you each one of us can make it.
We need to be brave, we need to be humble, we need the love and support of our family and friends. The human connections are more important than ever to go through these healing trials.
We need to care lovingly for ourselves, our bodies and needs, and those of our fellow beings close to us. Judging and rejecting is isolating us, and a spiritual approach in the old way of less or higher evolved is a great obstacle.
Those who are not willing or capable to deal with and illuminate their own hell will pass away and leave their bodies, and this again is no punishment but a necessary procession. What is coming afterwards is underlying the highest divine wisdom and law.
Unpurged souls will not reincarnate to earth again.

*He who is of pure mind, heart and soul and loves mother nature and earth more than his convenience will inherit the kingdom of love and loving kindness.*

Rest in the love of our mother earth, rest in the protective shield of the divine masculine, be brave and be humble.
Stick to your familiy and your friends, and know all is going to be more than beautiful.
At last, I shall confim that mother earth is in a process of reshaping and redressing, but it is a gentle and graceful process, and the beauty of it not yet visible for our outer human eyes is of true heavenly beauty.
She is going to be the Paradise Planet she was designed to be from the beginning of all time, and she loves her children very much.


Thank you for listening and caring.
I love you.
… ❤ Ulrike

Story of my Resurrection I


A journey into death and back to life

I was born in November 1969.
My life was fine.
I got a brother in summer of 1971.
I loved him very much. He loved me deeply too.
Fighting and loving, always sticking together almost like twins.

I was dark, he was light.
I was tall and slim, he was soft and roundish.
Sun and Moon.
Dusk and dawn.
Summer warmth and the dying of the year.

On my 6th birthday in 1975 he was already ill, unrecognized. He was silent and withdrawn, could not participate.
8 days later he died.
He had an unhealable infection of the brain.
No machine was able to make him stay.

And he had known.
Around his 4th birthday end of July that year he had said:
“When I have to die I am not afraid.”

When he fell into coma I was asleep and my parents left me alone at home to bring him into hospital.
He never woke into his body again. I never saw him again alive.

My soul fell into darkness.
She followed him to search her beloved brother. And so I followed him into the landscapes of death, seeing only greyish shapes in a nomans land.
But he was not there.

Higher wisdom had decided to send a part of him back to save me from dying as well.
A part of his soul consciousness walked into my body and has stayed here since, while a part of my soul stayed in the landscapes of death.
These are also called the astral worlds.

It is hell, it is heaven, it is the landscapes of our dreams, hopes, desires and also of our sorrows, fears and nightmares.

I stayed alive physically and still experienced the different stages and lands of death and rebirth as connected to them constantly.

My brothers soul part gifted me light, love and faith all the time. He did not walk through the lands of death but rested in the blessed kingdom of enlighted souls to gather light for both of us.

And all this was orchestered by divine highest will and we had volunteered to do this.
Our love was and is great enough for this huge and challenging task.

Because on human plane and me in my human nature forgot about the beauty of the shared mission.

Oblivion and deep suffering followed.
But now I am allowed to wake up to the truth behind.
And the beauty of it is so amazing.

I will share all I have learned with humanity. This is my purpose.
Dear friends please follow me without fear.
And be assured it is so important and precious.

I love you.





Dearest friends and listeners, lately the news about the passing of persons are increasing. Me too have been saying farewell to one of my longest male friends being only 47.

I want to say something about it in general to light up your hearts and minds and encourage you to see the sense in the death of beloved or very appreciated human beings.

They are not being a victim of a desease, accident or the heaviness of their lifes circumstances after all even if it looks like that on first sight.
They were using the nature of divine will and law in harmony with the law of free will implemented and always valid on this planet.

And this means not a problem or catastrophy has happened but they have decided to pass in alignment to highest purpose.
They were asked and have chosen longer before this physical death to serve and assist earth or existance anywhere else in a different plane or incarnation.

I want to encourage you to see the meaning of the passing of beloved ones in a different and divine view.
My beloved friend who has just passed only a few days ago has been connected with me on heart and soul plane all the time since we met on earth, and still is.

I have received so much love and support while he was alive and I still do since he has passed. He might have died in human eyes, but his light is shining for and in me even brighter and stronger than before his death now.

Though I will be at his funeral tomorrow and have cried some tears of farewell I still rest in the unshakeable knowing he is needed elsewhere and is lead by divine highest guidance and will journey safely to reach the plane he is meant for.

We not only lighten up our own hearts and souls with this knowing and view but also those of others impacted by the loss, and even more important, we assist the last journey of our beloved human being.

The dying need our inner and outer peace and light and letting go in trust and respect of their own and gods choice.
I want to encourage you once more to a positive view and comprehension of death.
Apart from touching our human hearts and the necessary healthy mourning and missing the death of beloved ones shall give us an even deeper connection with them in our inner and an even deeper connection with our live and the highest love dwelling on divine plane, where we will never cease to be one with the beloved.

This unshakeable indestructable bond on divine plane is also always in our deepest inner heart.


Go into the daylight and sun.
Do not follow the dying into the deathlands, and do not hold onto them to make them stay.

A beautiful farewell and welcome on the other side for all the dying of these days.


Love and blessings always.
Ulrike Kussike